Jibberish

I'm SOBERING from the heartbreak.
I feel as if i can move on from this, but i refuse not to.
Do i adore this pain? or do i just simply LOVE her?
We came this far and we're barely scratching the surface of friendship.
Little arguements that keep us away for days, even week, but thats just time for me to realize how much i miss her.
Even when i think things are going as they're planned, but when i need someone to talk to it's always a missed call.
Sometimes i think i'm cluastraphobic, cause i hide from all these emotions.
& having her around would feel so perfect, but here i go again just getting my only hopes up.
Weak as it sounds, i try to make myself smile at times just thinking of how happy we were...

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